So I didn't meet most of my new years resolutions for this past year. I made 3 out of 11. Well, at least it was something right? I think my expectations were too high with a combination of my desires changed as well. Still, there were a few things on there that I really should have completed.

One of the things I failed at was the weight loss. Granted most of that has to do with the fact that I'm not overweight. It's hard to think about losing weight when you're not fat to begin with. That's probably why I did lose 20 pounds two years ago. I was chunky. Now I'm not, but I still think I'd be happier if I was down to 110 which is what I weighed in high school. So that's my new goal and that goal starts now, not in 2010. That's 13 pounds. I can do 13 pounds.

Ok, so I'm going to check in next week and tell you all how it's going. The first thing I'm doing this week is cutting out all the candy and fast food. I don't care if it's Christmas. Nothing tastes as good as being thin feels. If I can make it under 120 (4 pounds) by New Years It'd be awesome.

Title: No Rest for the Wicked
Pairing: Jax/Opie
Rating: light R
Disclaimer: do not own any of it. do not make money off of it.
Warnings: Slash, Spoilers for Season2
Summary: an idea of what happens a few days after the season finally
Author's Note: Comes after Loyal Sons which happened after In the Still of the Night. I suggest reading them before this one. It might be confusing otherwise.

( They didn't know what was happening between them, but at least they were doing it together. )

Title: Loyal Sons
Pairing: Jax/Opie
Rating: PG-13
Disclaimer: do not own any of it. do not make money off of it.
Warnings: mild Slash, Spoilers for Season2
Summary: re-written scene from the episode "Service"
Author's Note: A sort of continuation of my first SOA fic. Not really necessary to read it first, but it's short so you might as well. In the Still of the Night. There's one more after this which I'll post this weekend or early next week.

( He hoped Opie would understand, but mostly he hoped Opie would stay. )

I'm a writer? Who am I kidding? Maybe a pronographer, but seriously I am way in over my head.

I sat down to do rewrites on my first novel. I printed out all my notes and made little index cards. I rearranged the chapters as needed. I have no idea how to do the things I'm writing about. I have to do some major research in order to make this book the least bit believable and I'm really not sure I can pull this off.

I'm going to try anyway.

Oh, and btw, I got my first flame in years about a week ago on that Jax/Opie ficlet I wrote a year ago. It was most amusing and inspired me to write two more Jax/Opie ficlets. Coming to you soon. My apologies to Kurt Sutter, Charlie Hunman, and Ryan Hurst. :)

Really, was there ever any doubt?



( read about my fascinating journey )

Ok, less than one week for NaNo. I haven't been this excited about writing in a long time. It's like itching in my brain, I need to know what happens in my story. That might sound weird. How can I not know what happens in the story I plan to write. I've never started a story with such unclear ideas about where I'm going with it. I have ideas. I have characters. I think I'm in love with my gay mathematician and I don't even know his name yet. Nope. I can't wait to find out! And I can't wait to see how my mute and teenage werewolf fall in love. Aw.

I've never written fantasy before either. Funny, SciFi/Fantasy is all I read when I'm not reading non-fiction.

Also, I had a great time at the kick-off party. I'm usually such an introverted wallflower it took all my courage for me to go to the write-ins last year. But I feel slightly less anxious this time as I'd already met a few people last year. It reminded me a bit of what I missed about college which was having a group of people to talk to about what I was working on. I mean, that can understand it at my level cause they do it too. In college I had fellow artists and writers to talk to and we could critique each others work. But after college I had no network and the only artists I knew were musicians. Nice, but not the same.

Anyway, I'll be going to some of the write-ins, if anything to try to be a more social person, but really it's nice to have some camaraderie.

Title: Bass Face
Chapter: Six
Pairings: none.
Rating: PG-13 (cause they are going to curse a lot)
Warnings: This fic is not to be taken seriously. AU. Angst. Fluff. Blatant disregard for Metallica history and Grimm Fairy Tales.
Disclaimer: I do not own Metallica. I do not know Metallica. These things never happened.
Summary: Metallica story done Cinderella style with Jason Newsted as Cinderella, Bob Rock as the evil stepmother, James Lars and Kirk as the evil stepsisters, Phil Anselmo... I won't get into the rest because it's a surprise. Based on the Disney version of Cinderella (which is the one I know best).

Author's Note: Sorry for the delay. Sorry it's so quick and dirty. But, hey it's done. It's crackfic, but it's done. Now I only have one unfinished story. Poor little story. You sacrificed yourself so it would not happen to any more of my stories.


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Yes, it's been awhile. And it'll probably be long while after this because next month is November which is National Novel Writing Month. I have a story all planned out (sort of) and I'm really looking forward to writing it. You know what was really great was telling people, "next month I'm going to start working on my second novel". Wow. My second novel. I haven't finished editing the first, but I'm starting my SECOND novel. Thank you NaNoWriMo.



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About a year ago a friend from work said I was like the mom on Gilmore Girls. I thought it was because she was a good looking younger single mom (vain? me?) with a daughter. I've never watched the Gilmore Girls but managed to catch an episode yesterday and actually sat down to watch it.

Woah. I was totally freaked out. I act almost exactly like the woman. It was so weird, like watching an older and hotter version of myself. They were on a roadtrip and she said complaining about the country music on the radio "how am I suppose to have a roadtrip without ACDC Highway to Hell?" Her favorite band is Metallica? Woah. I don't even know what else to say.

My daughter and I in 12 years...

Boo-ya! I couldn't have asked for a better result!


Your results:
You are Jean-Luc Picard

Jean-Luc Picard 70% Spock 67% Will Riker 65% Beverly Crusher 60% An Expendable Character (Redshirt) 50% James T. Kirk (Captain) 45% Geordi LaForge 45% Uhura 35% Chekov 30% Deanna Troi 25% Leonard McCoy (Bones) 25% Data 17% Mr. Scott 15% Worf 5% Mr. Sulu 5%

A lover of Shakespeare and other fine literature. You have a decisive mind and a firm hand in dealing with others.

Click here to take the Star Trek Personality Test

Title: Bass Face
Chapter: Five
Pairings: none.
Rating: PG-13 (cause they are going to curse a lot)
Warnings: This fic is not to be taken seriously. AU. Angst. Fluff. Blatant disregard for Metallica history and Grimm Fairy Tales.
Disclaimer: I do not own Metallica. I do not know Metallica. These things never happened.
Summary: Metallica story done Cinderella style with Jason Newsted as Cinderella, Bob Rock as the evil stepmother, James Lars and Kirk as the evil stepsisters, Phil Anselmo... I won't get into the rest because it's a surprise. Based on the Disney version of Cinderella (which is the one I know best).

Author's Note: Sorry I took so long. I just have had other things on my mind. There’s only one more chapter after this one. Also, there will be no pairings in this fic, as in Jason's not hooking up with anyone, unless you really want him to and if that's the case just ask me and tell me who you want him to hook up with. I can make it anyone you want. But like the Cinderella story, Jason will live happily ever after regardless.

( And the winner is... )

I decided against going to Chicago for the big librarian conference. There's really little point for it. I don't find any of the job recruiters there interesting, and no job opening that will be interviewing there is interesting to me either. The seminars are not in the field I want to work in. There's nothing for me there except maybe one friend who I can see another time.

I mentioned it to my mom, and she agreed with my reasons. Then she told me I should go somewhere else instead then on a mini-vacation. She said since my daughter already believes I'll be gone for a couple days, might as well just enjoy myself. It's a heady though and my first thoughts turned to California. I had a dream I went there to visit someone and I was so very happy in my dream. My second thoughts go to NY because I've never been to the Met.

I don't know if I'll really go anywhere else, but I'm thinking about it.

But I'm depressed. There's no other way to express that. If I'm at work and I have to blink back tears and keep from hiding under my desk then my ability to function is starting to deteriorate. And that's all there really is to say about that.

Am writing the next chapter of the Jason-Cinderella fic. Really I am. I just got distracted with my shiny new fandom, Kirk/Spock. I've spent the past few weeks obsessively looking through all the fan fiction I could find because I have an obsessive personality. Not stalker obsessive, but calling every Burger King in my area until I found all four Star Trek glasses obsessive.

But first... I have a new icon.

( and now a view on my non-sex life )

Truth is I saw the show when I was too young to really find William Shatner and Leonard Nemoy attractive. They were fatherly figures to me, or uncles. But now... Chris Pine and Zachary Quinto? Now that's something very pleasant for me to imagine.

What am I talking about you say? Why Kirk/Spock of course:
Where No Man Has Gone Before

I saw Star Trek yesterday in IMAX because I really just am that big of a nerd. And it was awesome, I can't wait until I see it again. Fantastic casting, director, special effects, plot, just everything. It deserves the 95% approval rating it has right now.

( My life as a pseudo-trekkie )

Ok, so some asshole(s) copy and pasted friend's locked entries on our Newsted fanpage. That's the issue with the internet you know. Once it's out there it's out there. And the only real resolution is to make it a members only community. Just us forever. But then we wouldn't be able to share our findings with the world. And I think ours is really a good up to date fanpage and I'd hate to ruin it for everyone because of one idiot.

I'm posting this over here because I don't want to add any more drama on the newstedfans page. I'm sure the people on that Metallica forum know that copying and pasting from another site (especially if they go to the site and won't be able to find that entry unless they are members) was... as someone else put it... stalkersish.

I don't even understand what all that nonsense has to do with a thread line dedicated to pictures of Jason Newsted.

I accidentally joined Twitter. There's a twitter thing where they post library jobs so I put in for that not really thinking about it. So now I have a twitter account. I'm so ashamed. It's not hooked into my phone or any craziness that people seem to be doing, but I have an account.

I don't like Twitter, the idea of it just bothers me. How self-absorbed do you have to be to be on Twitter?

I am also anti-Facebook, much to the dismay of a few friends of mine. I almost went to the dark side and joined Facebook when I saw Anderson Cooper was on it, but no... I resist. I refuse. I don't like that you can't pimp out the page, and that's my basic problem with it. I'll just wait for whatever hot thing replaces Facebook. In the meantime, I blog here since I'm sick of MySpace too.

( Jon Stewart shakes his fist at Twitter )

I finished Script Frenzy! Yay! My screenplay has wholes the size of minivans and contradicts itself so it needs a lot of editing! Yay! LOL. okay not so much the last part, but I did finish and that always brings a sense of accomplishment.



( kinks, and what I'm doing with myself right now....no, not that. )

I mod the Jason Newsted fan community on livejournal. This was an honor that's turning into a fucking headache. It's the only fan community for him on livejournal which is why I was hesitant to post so many limitations on it.

But the awesomeness of the internet is that very few of you know who I really am. So fuck it, I'm going to be a bitch about it. Pocket_ft, if you read this I'll totally kick that person out and ban them from the community if that's what'll it take to get you back. I started that community for you and ddmoca and I'll be damned if you leave over something so simple to solve. If you ever lose interest in Jason, or have a busier schedule that keeps you from us, I understand, but not over this.

If you don't come back, I think I might just hand over the keys to ddmoca cause I'm seriously disillusioned right now. ddmoca will probably just kick that person out too anyway and delete all their posts.

I started Script Frenzy on April 1st and then lagged terribly behind. I'm writing the sequal to my horror movie last year. And even though I know what events have to happen, I was still suffering from writer's block.

The thing with writer's block once you've started a story I discovered is that it's not that you cant think of anything to write... there is an honest problem that can be solved. You've just got to figure out what it is. In my care I realized, I was unhappy with my script. Once I realized this it took me a mere few minutes to realize why. Once I figured that out the words just poured from my fingers and I am now starting to catch up.

So in the future, there will be no whining about "writer's block". Instead I must figure out the source of my displeasure that I don't want to keep writing my fabulous stories.

As far as other fascinating tales.. I just read a David/Edgar Lost Boys fan fiction. This is one movie I could never really find a ship to get behind. But I was fascinated with this series of drabbles about these two as a couple. It's a very interesting dynamic between those two. I am intrigued and will go try and find more when I go home.